Why is it?

Everyone always says how I deserve more than I get, how I deserve the best, so why do I never get it? Am I not looking hard enough, or am I looking too hard? I just want things to go smooth in my life, for once. Even if it was just for a little while. I’m sick of being the girl who goes through unnecessary shit, and always being so strong when I shouldn’t have to be. I should have someone to go to, cry on their shoulder, and have them still love me at the end of the day. But, I don’t have that. I don’t know if I ever will. I guess, I’m just too much to handle.

Distraught.

You know the feeling, where you want to listen to music, but it feels like none of it is adequate enough? And you end up skipping through all of your tracks trying to find the right song to fit your mood? I just realized its a lot like finding a good relationship, except music is easier to find. Anyways, I can't find a song to calm me down right now and I wish I could..

What you see to the to the left, is something you won't see me posting. So if you can't handle honesty, heart, outrageous emotions, and blunt attitudes, this is not the blog for you to read ;)