Why is it?

Everyone always says how I deserve more than I get, how I deserve the best, so why do I never get it? Am I not looking hard enough, or am I looking too hard? I just want things to go smooth in my life, for once. Even if it was just for a little while. I’m sick of being the girl who goes through unnecessary shit, and always being so strong when I shouldn’t have to be. I should have someone to go to, cry on their shoulder, and have them still love me at the end of the day. But, I don’t have that. I don’t know if I ever will. I guess, I’m just too much to handle.